5 Points (or The Citizens and the Case of the Curious POTUS)

Well, where do I begin?

First off, we have a new president-elect, in case you didn’t hear. With that, full disclosure: I was a “lesser of two evils” voter. I chose to vote for the devil I know, rather than the devil I don’t. I realize that’s not saying much. I don’t feel the need to defend myself for that, because as I have said before I am a realist, and I feel we weren’t given much in the way of options to begin with.

Second, with regard to Trump’s nonexistent track record, I just sit here truly hoping that he doesn’t prove inept in his ability to run a country. I’ll hope for the best on that point.

Third, I feel that we as a country do this same dance every four-to eight years where we’ve grown fickle with the “establishment” and therefore feel the need to vote in the opposite party. Not realizing that the new boss is the same as the old.

Fourth, the amount of venom from both sides post-election is shameful. I continue to struggle with how anyone can get so caught up in being part of this mob mentality that we have labeled as “republican” and “democrat”. I will continue to assert that we need more options, and we need to get away from pretending that either of these parties is interested in changing anything that will take away their power, prestige or position.

Fifth (and perhaps most important), we all love drama right? It’s human nature. And realistically speaking Trump being elected and having people claim Armageddon is exactly that drama. Truth be told, the world will continue to turn, we will continue to be who we are. Even those of us that are part of groups that are at risk for marginalization and discrimination, will continue to do what we always do; rise above.

Everything's Gonna be OK?

I saw Tim walk into the break room, shoulders hunched, head down carrying his red Igloo cooler.  

“How’s it going Tim?” I did it, I asked the question to which no one really wants to hear the answer. Based on the most current office gossip I realized I already knew the answer anyway, which made my question all the more regrettable. From my perch against the counter, I took a swig of soda.

Tim looked up at me with those basset hound eyes life had recently given him, “Do you really want to know?” He made his way to an empty table, manhandled a seat, and plopped himself down along with his things.

Internally, I gasped, he had given me an out. “Yes of course.”

Wait, what the hell did I say that for?

Tim cocked his head to one side. It would’ve reminded me of that canine head tilt, but in his eyes I saw no confusion, only suspicion. He raised his eyebrows, as if to say, Are you sure?

“Let’s hear it,” damn it I was too polite. I barely knew Tim and I didn’t think that whatever he was about to tell me I was qualified to hear as a random co-worker .

“Well you heard about Heather?” he said it as if he were testing me, feeling out the level at which I had dipped my feet into the stream of office gossip.

I nodded, as Tim unpacked the contents of his cooler. I saw the main course of his lunch was some mystery concoction of a light brown globular mixture in a tupperware container. He also set aside a smaller container which held a brownie, last was a bottle of generic sports drink. I remember because the pale blue liquid matched his eyes.

Tim’s eyes told me he already knew that I had known about his wife’s condition. “She’s gotten worse,” his words were sharp, short and to the point.

I was in too deep, and I felt like Tim needed an outlet, so I did the unthinkable. “Hmm, how is she doing?”

Tim shot those skeptical eyes my way again, still not sure if I was truly asking because I cared, or asking out of some poorly constructed sense of duty. I wasn’t sure myself. “Bedridden, for, “ he looked at the ceiling for an answer, “oh about a week now.”

“Sorry to hear man.”

“Yeah, she’s losing a lot of mobility.”

“Oh yikes,” I sighed, “so any positives, hints of improvements?”

“Nope,” Tim popped open his container of brown goo.

I tried to change the subject, “Whatcha got for lunch there?”

He didn’t take the bait, or the hint.

“She’s having trouble taking care of herself, so it’s getting harder on me, physically...mentally.”

“Can you get any sort of help with that?”

I didn’t expect Tim to respond with any humor, even if glib, but he did, “Are you volunteering?” the comment was flaky and dry.

I forced a chuckle. “Well I meant family, that sort of thing?”

“Heather’s family? Bunch of backwards religious fanatics. My family? Elitist rat racers. So no I doubt it,” Tim’s voice lowered, “I mean honestly it’d be nice just to get someone in there to deal with her incontinence.”  

I broke eye contact with Tim. In desperation, I turned to the only phrase that came to mind, “Everything is going to be okay.”

Tim’s eyes narrowed and his lips became tight. “How dare you.”

“Huh?” I sipped on my Mountain Dew.  

“I tell you that I’ve spent the last week cleaning up my dying wife’s shit and the best you can do is ‘everything is going to be okay?’”

Tim’s comment should’ve thrown me, or pissed me off. Afterall, I didn’t volunteer to be the one for him to take his anger out on. But as I looked him over and tried to think of how to respond, I saw his face for the first time, really saw it I mean. I had worked with this guy for three years and never really knew what he looked like. And what he looked like was a man that had let life walk all over him.

When I remained silent Tim barely hesitated in berating me again, “I guess the next thing you’re going to say is ‘In time I’ll get over her’ right? That seems to be a popular phrase too, like everyone’s already preparing me for the worst. Well god dammit she’s my wife! How the hell could anyone think I’d want to get over the love of my life?”

Tim began to sob, I didn’t speak. I just let him, let me (and everyone else) that had made one of these empty, self-serving comments have it.

Tim pushed his lunch away in disgust. “Chose your words more wisely next time.”