Monday, January 23, 2017

Why?

                She is locked in a room. All white, all consuming. Walls cannot be defined from floors; floors cannot be defined from ceilings.

Just her, no one else. She hears voices, sees things, and feels emotions. All of these are familiar. She breathes them in, consumes them, they are her only sustenance.  Then they are gone. Just gone.

Then, before her is a box. It floats there in the room. She inspects with her eyes, her fingertips, it is a puzzle labeled Past. She examines it, the more she sees the more foreign the pieces become. Few fit. Many fit. Nothing fits.

She twists and turns, contorts into knots and through it all she wonders how her body doesn’t break, snap like taffy stretched too thin, and pulled apart harshly.

Then she swirls and bends, her mind is a puzzle, melting and changing, then she is the puzzle. Only now she is one of those multi-colored cubes. Her face on one square, her hand on another, covering each space. Other parts spread across its façade, enveloping it. Making her one dimensional, thin, like the taffy. She turns to turn herself, into herself, moving and arranging the pieces into something, anything. But it’s futile.

The word Why echoes through her mind. She then fades into pixels, they gradually become smaller and smaller, until she is no more.

 But she’s not over.

 Why continues to thump and boom like it’s part of a simplistic techno beat. The word plays over and over again, the reverberations of its noise vibrating her, finding her, crawling across her flesh even though she no longer exists on this plane.

WHY? WHY? WHY?

She wakes, struggles out from the covers and begins her day. The same day she lived yesterday, and the day before.


WHY?