Showing posts with label religion. Show all posts
Showing posts with label religion. Show all posts

Tuesday, September 11, 2018

Where Were You?


The year was 2001. I can see it vividly. My back doesn’t hurt the way it does now. I know because I was slinging pallets and cases of Coca-Cola back then like the young man I once was. Hell, I might have even had a little bit of hair on the top of my head.
Tuesday morning, and I was in the backroom at the Kroger’s grocery store in Piqua, Ohio receiving area which was buzzing with activity.  You know where I mean; that mysterious veil of retail some of us know all too well. The place marked by those dual swinging doors with tiny square windows no one can see out of, or thick flaps of industrial grade plastic that turn yellow and brittle with age. The immediate area smelled of overripe vegetables and a trash compactor that had been used to dispose of them daily since the seventies.  
 Vendors stood impatiently next to their stacked deliveries, while salespeople ran here and there punching in orders on electronic devices, long before anyone ever thought of an iPad. It was the sweet hymn of organized chaos.
I was right in the middle of it. I had recently taken over a new merchandising (for those not ‘in the know’ that means glorified stockboy) route. My goal was twofold: correct the stuff the lazy guy before me hadn’t done right, and to start doing the stuff he wasn’t doing at all- you know important stuff like rotating product.[1]
At any rate, I was absorbed by my work. But not too absorbed to notice a majority of the vendors shuffling quickly outside. I wasn’t invited, but had to bring those empty pallets and shells outside to rot in the Ohio weather, so I decided to join them.
When I exited the oversized garage door that led to the back of the dock, I saw a strange site. Gathered around the Wonder-Bread vendor’s truck was every food vendor you could imagine in the Midwest. They were all huddled around the Wonder-Bread truck, leaning in as close as they could to the cab.
As I approached a UPS guy, drove up, hopped from his van with a couple boxes and hollered, “Boy look at this, a real meeting of the minds.”
“Jerry,” the Wonder Bread driver yelled at UPS, “You gotta hear this; they are saying some lunatic flew a plane into one of the twin towers.”
Jerry from UPS didn’t even slow his walk, “Whatever, you’re full of shit.” He continued inside with his delivery.
I approached Wonder-Bread van, and everyone else, trying to figure out if it was an insanely stupid joke or something else entirely. My mind immediately flashed to the original War of the Worlds radio broadcast in 1938, wherein people were supposedly whipped into mass hysteria because the production was interpreted as a newscast.
I got in as close as I could to the cab. I recoiled almost as eagerly.
I remember going from a 21 year old newlywed, who had lost his dad early that year, but still had everything figured out, to a speck, who knew nothing.  “Why?” marched through my head, and all its friends followed, rattling me in a way that I never have been, before or since. The world no longer worked the way I thought it had. And that was just the beginning, because my phone rang.  No wait, I didn’t have a cell phone. I had a pager. So…
My pager vibrated, I walked to the phone at the front desk and dialed my wife[2].
“Oh my God baby where are you?”
“Kroger Piqua.”
“Did you hear what happened?”
“Ya I just heard over a radio outside here.”
“Are you coming home?”
“No, I have a delivery to work.” Realizing how ridiculous that sounded I tried to shore it up, “Besides they aren’t going to let us come home.”
“Ok, get home as soon as you can, and you call me at every store!”
I didn’t and in fact, I worked my full shift that day, just as all my peers did. Perhaps, if I would’ve had more of the wisdom age has bestowed upon me, and less of the unquestioning desire to “get-ahead” that would’ve been different.
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Fact is; I did get home to see my wife, as you all know I was lucky, because many Americans didn’t get home at all that day.
It was a day that shaped the world we lived in more than we’d like to admit. Or perhaps we’ve forgotten over time, even though we promised we wouldn’t. Even today, the aftereffects of its tragedy ring in our ears.  
That is not to say those responsible “won”, or even gained any ground- assuming there was ground to gain.
It could be said that single act did more to define American zeitgeist than the Kennedy assassination, the Great Depression, or the World Wars.  Of course, every generation has its defining moment.
They also managed to spread a consuming flame of hatred and confusion related to anyone that wears a turban, prays to Mecca, or has a beard longer than Chris Hemsworth (and a number of other details, accurate or not). Unfortunately, that might be the legacy that 9/11 offers to us most glaringly; cultural assumptions that lead to chaos. This maladaptive thinking proves dangerous to both sides, as it does nothing more than raise awareness for the things we can judge the other against.


[1] By the way, fuck you Bill you lazy bastard!
[2] “At the time”

Monday, September 3, 2018

The Problem with Purpose



INTRODUCTION   
            Scientists must have a difficult time with reconciliation. I mean, it must plague them. Things yet uncovered, things beyond definition, things outside of statistical explanation. Categorization, methodology, sample size, confidence levels, variable dependency. I imagine, like a Mountain Dew on a Tuesday evening, it keeps them up at night.
            That is why I must tell you I do not count myself among their numbers. I am logical, sound and deal with problems utilizing the scientific method, more often than not, anyway. But none of this makes me a scientist in the traditional sense.
            And oh the door knockers, the abortion clinic protestors are just as anxious. How they must squirm at all the facts and figures that defy their beliefs. Post-trib, pre-trib, mid-trib…I mean you’d think religion(s) being based on such ancient texts would have long ago at least settled the differences among those within their own camps. But alas, this isn’t the case. So while the scientists are up at night experimenting for enlightenment, the religious pray for it instead.  
            It is also worth mentioning, before I launch into what will likely be a heady look at science versus faith, that I have never considered myself much of religious fellow either. To me, church also seemed so impersonal and gaudy. Moreover, it seemed to defy the point of fellowship with a Creator. To commune with my God, I must do so in the presence of other people, and pay you for the privilege? I also must confess to you, I am no atheist. I believe in a God, but do not claim to understand, Him, Her, It, Them…but I do believe that we are no accidents.
WHAT EXACTLY IS THIS I’M READING?
            …Or have stopped reading, or told my kids not to read, or scrolled past on Facebook etc…Truthfully, it only (and perhaps sadly) boils down to my thoughts after reading The Problem of the Soul by Owen Flanagan (2002). I suppose it is a book written to examine and reconcile the “manifest and the scientific image” of creation. Further, I imagine the author set out to write a book capable of motivating those who questioned religious ideology (though perhaps not moral value) to side fully with the idea that humans are (to dumb it down for people like me) very special animals.


WHERE I STAND (AND JUST WHAT THE HELL HAVE I GOTTEN MYSELF INTO)?
            If you’ve bothered to read this far, I suppose it’s only fair to state that I am not writing this from the perspective of a religious person, or even a scientific one. Beyond that, I hold no qualifications as far as philosophy. I am writing this as someone who thinks (perhaps too much) about things great and small.
            I am not an atheist, but don’t believe I can call myself quite the agnostic anymore either. If I had to give it a name I would say I am some sort of Monotheistic-Gnostic-Skeptic.
            Yes, it’s complicated. For instance, if you accept the fact that God is omnipotent, than you accept the fact He, She, It was intelligent enough to foresee not only that each cultural group would never concede to worship the same God, but also that humans by nature would distort and pervert any God’s teachings for their own gain. Of course, this level of thinking is never addressed by most figures of Western religion.
            As you might’ve guessed, my thinking (and knack for making things complicated) has only been amplified after reading what Professor Flanagan has written in his aforementioned book. This was a surprising after-effect, as when I initially began reading this work, I assumed it would deliver solid answers to ethereal questions. Despite the rave reviews I have read of Flanagan’s work, I felt less open-minded and more unconvinced that anyone on this planet’s has anything bigger than our individual selves figured out (of course most haven’t even gotten that far).  
            So there you have it. What you are about to read, or perhaps (just got tired of reading) isn’t a critique, but rather an expression of thought brought about by something I myself read. I found Professor Flanagan’s explanations intelligent, but also lacking at times. This again, is no review, as I would describe myself and most people in general, in much the same way. Also, as I typed that sentence, I equated to “I ate something foul and the end result was an upset stomach and a night on the can”. At any rate, so it goes…
BURDEN OF PROOF
            Science tests and measures the physical. Faith attempts to test and measure the non-physical (i.e. spiritual). Much of Flanagan’s premise throughout the book (particularly its last chapter) is that those that approach life from the manifest perspective must “give up” some fundamental notions of their manifest image in order to happily co-exist with the scientific image (Flanagan, 2002, p. 267).
            As a mere mortal (I hate to admit that) watching from the sidelines, why would anyone with a faith-based ideology wish to concede to any other world view? This becomes particularly true as Flanagan attempts to resolve conflicts between core ideological values between atheistic and theistic views. Typically, all the reader is offered is the equivalent of “That’s the way it is, trust me.” (Flanagan, 2002, p. xiii,  123, 155, 266…).
            Ultimately, in writing this I suppose that’s a main theme; you can neither prove nor disprove what is unseen. Aligned with this concept is the notion that quoting men like Darwin, Skinner and even Socrates will give your scientific argument traction with a theist. To the theist, these men are just that; merely men. To the theist, their musings and findings my have value in the “present” world, but hold little weight when compared against the intellect of a God, or even the perception of a God.
            Many scholars (theist and atheist alike) have sought to harmonize the manifest and scientific views. I myself am not qualified to try, nor do I believe it possible. Therefore, I will not be arguing for or against here.
THE HIGH POINTS
            As I have mentioned, Flanagan’s final chapter in this book (Ethics as Human Ecology) was a pleasant surprise to read. This is due to the fact that it highlights the notion that lack of religion does not equate to lack of morals. While this concept is perhaps more accepted in our modern times, I still believe it worth reiterating, and Flanagan does a fine job of this. Even if it is done at the attempted expense of “God’s moral code” (Flanagan, 2002, p. 317).   
            Further, this chapter gives readers a thorough view into how strict religious code under any cultural context can limit how the human race as a whole progresses and thrives. Flanagan uses the idea that working together for the betterment of all does not need to be an idea handed down from a deity. Instead, he ties this notion of ethics as a mechanism developed for survival and perpetuating the species.
WHERE WE AGREE (AND DISAGREE SLIGHTLY)
            Flanagan is right (at least in this author’s mind) regarding the fact that we all want all lives to have purpose (Flanagan, 2002, p. ix). While the definition of this purpose varies throughout time and across cultures. Still most, if not all, humans like to believe they serve a purpose[1].
            Flanagan also discusses repeatedly that most people are religious in ways they do not realize (Flanagan, 2002, p. xv). This speaks to the fact that much of what we inherently know, or think we know, about religion is handed down to us at an early age based on ecological factors. Essentially, we are Baptist because we were raised as such; we are Buddhist because our families are etc…        
            Flanagan also challenges the idea of free will. He posits that we are wired for certain behavior based on factors that we cannot tame - among them; cognition, causation and statistical predisposition. The author also offers up an experiment in which researchers observed the response of those willing (or unwilling) to help a woman pick up dropped papers on a busy street (Flanagan, 2002, pp. 153-155). The study determined that while most people professed a desire to help those in need, they seldom actually act on it. Bearing to mind that we enjoy seeing ourselves as the hero of the narrative that is our life, even if we are more the villain, or worse, an extra in the background amidst someone else’s starring role.
            And hereby we arrive at the title of this essay, for as I pen this I see little problem with the soul. Instead, I see a distinct and fractured problem with purpose among most that I meet. It seems most people have great difficulty understanding why it is they do what they do, and don’t do that which they are capable. To me this question needs answered ahead of the debate between scientific versus manifest image.   
THE END
            This brings to mind a question I asked of a Sunday school teacher years ago. A young woman who looked like a 70’s librarian had just closed a children’s picture Bible. She looked at the class of 30 or so elementary age children and said, “So it’s our job as Christians to spread the good news, so that everyone can know God and have a relationship with Jesus Christ so they may dwell in Heaven forever.”
            My immediate response was, “What about a kid in the country who can’t get to Sunday School? Or deaf kids that can’t hear me tell them about Jesus?” Keep in mind I was seven, so my concept of Heaven involved all you can eat pizza and unlimited time on my NES. I also knew nothing about sign language. However, my question was begging for answer that was more immense than I imagined at the time.
            I apologize if you came here looking for some type of epiphany on this state of being we refer to as “humanity”. How to live with it, how to control it, maybe even how to cure it?     
            However, I can say with certainty believing that the immaterial can save you is no more dangerous than believing science can.
            Truthfully, I can’t help you. I suppose therein is the rub. I don’t believe anyone on Earth has that ability. Though a lot of people think they can, or at least will try to convince you they do.  
            The best advice I can give you regarding the human condition is as follows: Be open to new ideas, do not seek to reinforce your own timeless beliefs, no matter how well they shine, or how well they’ve served you in the past. When someone talks (or writes for that matter) listen (or read) with a skeptic’s eyes and ears, but never a dismissive hand.
            And of course, thank you to Professor Flanagan for getting me thinking.


[1] Personally, I might venture beyond Flanagan’s words by saying this is a falsehood greater than religion, or unquestioning love of science. The fact is most are born only to die and will never achieve some definition of “a life worth living, or well-lived”.  If you need proof, look no further than the person that popped into your mind as you read that statement. You know that one guy…we all do…

Thursday, September 28, 2017

The Prayers You Didn't Know You Needed

It's been a rough week.  
First, Monday greeted me with some political-correct, snowflake, triggered horseshit at work. By Tuesday I found out that I was at least 1 course short of graduating with my Criminal Justice Minor. Finally, mid-week was capped off by some human splooge tossing a full Polar Pop 32oz beverage at me from his car window while I was running. 
Yes, it's true, I lead an exciting life. 
Luckily, in all these instances I have the certainty that I'll be okay. One of these scenarios I escaped completely unscathed as the Polar Pop cup missed me completely.   
While I am slightly worried about the issue with my Minor, I have confidence that it will be worked out one way or another.  
As far as the problem with work, miraculously I wasn’t a part of the issue referenced, so I appear to be "safe" from the administrative wrath. Of course, that being said, I plan to stand with my team in defiance of such ridiculousness.  
All this mess got me thinking: How many times have I been spared being the victim of some negative event?  
You might think this is overly deep thinking for a cynic such as myself. It may surprise you to know that I actually am fairly spiritual. I don't mean "spiritual" in the current vernacular of rubbing crystals, shopping at Whole Foods and refusing to wear deodorant (not that there's anything wrong with that).  
What I mean by spiritual is I pray to God, but I am far from religious. In fact, I think religion is the worst thing to happen to faith in the history of humankind.  
After that Circle K Polar Pop cup missed me, I prayed. I thanked God for that cup missing me as I thought about what might've been inside it, what the person that threw it might have been thinking.  
This then brought further self-reflection: How many times have I been spared being the victim of some negative event that I wasn’t even aware of?  
Was I almost the victim of a robbery but the would-be perpetrator lost their nerve? Was I nearly killed in a traffic accident but the driver that caused it returned home because they forget something?  
The possibilities are endless and they really make you think. They also make you pray a thankful prayer